i'm so sick and tired of never being good enough. im sick of never living up of expectations. and im so sick of all this freaking drama that im not even involved with but was sucked into. i didnt even do anything. kim was so right. everyones changing. and most of all, im sick of being indirectly accused of stealing peoples friends. im sorry if im trying to make new friends. first off, i am not influencing them, maybe they just didnt want to do immature revenge because you were so freaking jealous and finally faced a reality check that you are a spoiled and stuck up bitch who thinks her possee can only chill with her. and second, dont leave facebook comments about me to your friends when i can plainly see them. i know they are about me. i didnt steal your freaking friend, im sorry if we became good friends this year. im not stealing her, maybe you should try and hang out with her more you peace of crap.

im sick of everyone and this freaking town and basically life. this shit aint woth it anymore.

boo whores im sorry i just feel like bitching.so first one of my friends is being all annoying lately. whenever i have lunch with her she doesnt even try and talk with me shes to busy with her other friends. and im not the only one that notices it either.

second, said friend and i had been planning a post psat bash for a while now. so this morn we were going to go out to get food but then she was too busy. so i went and dropped eleni at her house and got some starbucks and cafe fresh. 

then i come home and go online and shes like yea we are going to party tonight. she tells me her parents are going out tonight so then im like you should have a party and of course she said no. and then second shes like im already being badass by not going out to dinner by faking sick. wtf? that is waaay to kosish. and then she keeps saying how she wants this guy and she wants to go to parties. and she tries to be cool and stuff when she is around her "other friends" in how she goes to parties and bull shit like that. and then its soo annoying because shes like i wanna go to a party lets go to a party and then she wont go.

anyways we planned to go out to eat and then cruise around needham with some people. so i was excited to get out and get away from the stress of school. and shes like ill call you later. so then i was doing some history and i fall asleep. i woke up at 6ish and she still didnt call so i was like hmmm. i went online and her away message was like feeling crappy drinking tea and lifetime movies. wtf i saw you this morning and you were fine.

so i was pissed and i had some cheerios. then she leaves me a message and is like i cant go out. wtffff. and then i watch a movie and  i come back and shes like lifetime movies= life. whatever you want to watch sex and the single mom go right ahead.

its too much like someone else i know. im sick of it and im over it. SO OVER IT

fuck youuuuuu

as requested by sarah, im stopping by more often. but im lazy so im copying what i wrote in my lj.

today was pretty shitty. i woke up early to finish my history notes and never got a chance to study. i proceeded to ask my mom if i could skip first period (gym) so i could study and she said no. bitches.
then i had gym and had some intense volleyball. then unfortunately, the bleachers got put in so we had to play badminton. the nix thought my group wasnt good so we had to play with him and strategize. then i had history and failed. then lunch where we played 1..2..3 which was fun.
then french which sucked, art which sucked, and english which sucked.
then i went to stahhbucks and got some ptl.
i came home and caught up on real world.
JOEYS IN THE SLAMMMAHH!
then i made cupcakes. and then i went to best buy with my mom and she got me gg season three for my birfday. werrrrdd.
then i came home, showered, did math, frosted cupcakes, and now im writing.
tomorrow is half day which is so sick. i dont know whats happenin, except i need to give my carebear a ride. i kinda want to stop and get pizza and then go home and watch my soap which i stopped watching since school started. ive been so good about it. last year i taped it everyday and watched. i havent seen it since the day before school started. diesel. i really need to get the soap opera network.
but i come home because im a loner. shucks.
friday should be chilllll.
tomorrow is the li twins birfday. holla.
and mine is a week from today. holla squared.
i dont know, should i have a party????? or a party like yea its your bday party with girlie girls or like yea its your bday lets get fucked up paahhhty?